Mental Health · Polyamory · Relationships · Survival

existing (it hurts, but it’s ok; i’m used to it)

Today I'm feeling lots of feels. Blickety Black feels. Being Black is something I'm always aware of. The times I've forgotten, I've been very quickly reminded of my Blackness. So I'm always in my Blickety Black feels; sometimes, it's just more intrusive. This week has been one of those times. I know that a lot… Continue reading existing (it hurts, but it’s ok; i’m used to it)

Miscellaneous · Self Improvement · Survival

colorblindness and other kinds of privilege

"I don't see race." On the surface, this might seem like a harmless statement affirming that race doesn’t matter to you one way or another. You may think you're uber progressive by stating something like this, and that your POC friends applaud you for being such a libertarian or whatever. But what it's really doing… Continue reading colorblindness and other kinds of privilege

Mental Health · Self Improvement · Survival

is it lebensmüde?

Youtube: Anathema - Regret (Türkçe Altyazı) "Disappointment comes with EVERY SINGLE CHOICE. I've learned to deal with my present disappointments since there are others I could be suffering." This was a comment an acquaintance made on one of my friend's social media posts. I can't remember if the post was about family, romantic relationships, or… Continue reading is it lebensmüde?

Mental Health · Self Improvement · Survival


I recently was introduced to the concept of learned helplessness. Learned helplessness occurs when an animal is repeatedly subjected to an averse stimulus that it cannot escape. Eventually, the animal will stop trying to avoid the stimulus and behave as if it is utterly helpless to change the situation, even when opportunities to escape are… Continue reading helplessness.